| Crazy... another blog...
F U COUGH! is what I have to say. I'm tired fo this sickness and having to stay home to rest and rest and not being able to go out. I'm tired of being rediculed at and being blamed for people being sick, shoot, leave me be people.
And home for another week I am...
Although, tuesday I do have a recording session for a good 8 hours or so. Should be good, numerous artist coming through for this dudes CD. Good thing my recording stuff is here at home and I dont have to travel anywhere else. With that, I say gooood night!
-excel |
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| Hmmm...
I am back on the xanga, because its almost 5 in the morning and I need to blog. I can't blog on my music myspace, cause thats weird. And seeing that Jeff and Abet are repping xanga again, I thought I'd do like a lemming and follow the trend.
So I had already wrote a bunch of paragraphs but I just erased them all.
I really wanted to write out how I feel about my certain status of being single and being in the phase of an ex-boyfriend.
All I know is that I accept what has happened, and I can't let someone stall my life. Before I used to be so confused... As in. Do I want to keep trying to be with her? Do I keep calling her? Do I keep treating her like she's my girlfriend? Do I just cut her off? Do I just be friends? It's still real confusing, but luckly 2/3 of Captain X been through these same situations. I feel most comfortable with my mind at saying, F*CK IT! It is what it is, and this is what she wanted. I'll let her dictate the course of action as I continue on with my life. I can't be all hung up on what guy is trying to hollar at her or who she interested in. It's all nonsense either way. Besides, it's better if she comes back to me since she broke up with me. Cause then at that point, I wouldn't have been the one to influence her, its all her that would have made the decision.
It's quite a simple concept though, a girlfriend and boyfriend. They are there for eachother emotionally and physically, but not as comitted as a spouse. Yeah, we can say I love you and what not, but shoot, we aren't married yet, so why treat it like marriage? Why does it have to be so hard to be a girlfriend or boyfriend? Why does it have to be so "serious" if it is just being a boyfriend and girlfrined? It doesn't make any sense to me.
It's quite the rediculous how much the opposite sex can occupy your mind. Being sick for a whole month now hasn't helped the situation either.
I really hate too gripe about these things because I feel like I'm complaining about it all, when I already know that these could be the consequencies of getting into a seriouse relationship with someone. But whatever, you can't keep it all pent up forever.
For me though, with how crazy active my mind is, I tend to need a person in that girlfriend role to keep me sane. Now that I don't have one, my brain isn't balanced, and I'm a libra, you know how we are with needing balance. Enough ranting though, I'm tired and sleepy. Here comes a good 8+ hour sleep.
Conclusion to this blog...
Girls are wack!!!! haha no, JK.
"Grow up, love hurts and stop complaining about it, at least you got to feel it. Take this freedom as a blessing and embrace the extra energy from it; focus it and use it."
But to HER, if you're reading this, communication is KEY. If you want to talk about something, tell me, don't just drop subliminals here and there.
I think I feel better now after writing this out...
-EXCEL
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| It's time we wake up...
WAKE UP!
-Alexander |
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| X10SHUNNNN!!! naw i dunno...
but my springbreak is coming up..and my cd will be done..so if you all feel bored n want to get over, we can have a lil listenin party..how fun huh? hah
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